_+Hidden Thoughts+_

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2006-01-25T01:15:48Z

I went to that stupid party.
I really shouldn't have. But then again, I knew what to expect. I guess...I guess I just let hope get in the way of reality.
Honestly. My stranglehold on reality must not be that good anymore.

In short, it was boring and now I'm convinced my feelings will never be returned. I guess I'll just have to live with that.

...But that doesn't stop it from hurting.

Meh.

-Merle

merle_hikari @ 2005-12-30T20:47:00

2005-12-31T02:51:17Z

Eh, things are better now. It's been at least a month since my fight with Cookie, and I've completely healed.

Though now I somewhat wish I hadn't healed completely, because Shirogane-san and Akasaka are throwing a random party. Whoo. Which means I'm going to have to go AND dress up...in a dress.

...Eh. Isn't wearing my Mew Mew outfit and my cafe uniform enough girlyness for me?
I don't have much of a choice though, so I guess I'll just have to suck it up and deal with it...

Just a survey...

2005-12-13T02:31:16Z

Just a survey as I haven't updated in a while. Been too busy.

WRATH

1. Who did you last get angry with?: Momomiya.

2. What is your weapon of choice?: Meron Daggers.

3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?: Depends on the situation.

4. How about of the same sex?: *points above*

5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you?: Eh...I'm not sure.

6. What is your pet peeve?: Dunno.

7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go?: It depends...

SLOTH

1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time?: I'm...not sure.

2. What is the latest you've ever woken up?: 6:35 AM

3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't: No one...

4. What is the last lame excuse you made?: I don't make excuses.

5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through?: No.

6. When was the last time/thing you got a good workout in/with?: ...

7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today?: Not very, unless I'm extremely tired.

GLUTTONY

1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?: None.

2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat?: Both.

3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?: None...

4. Have you ever used a professional diet company?: No.

5. Do you have an issue with your weight?: No.

6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods?: I like sweets...

7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, "LUNCH"?: No...

LUST

1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family/yourself)?: None.

2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family/yourself)?: None. -.-

3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation?: No.

4. Have you "done it?": No.

5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice?: ...

6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?: No...

7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy?: No.

GREED

1. How many credit cards do you own?: None.

2. What's your guilty pleasure store?: None.

3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it?: I wouldn't want the money.

4. Would you rather be rich, or famous?: Neither. Both cause problems.

5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks?: No.

6. Have you ever stolen anything?: Haven't we all?

7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive?: Not many.

PRIDE

1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of?: ...

2. What's one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of?: Psh, like my parents care.

3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life?: I'm not sure...

4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?: No.

5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors?: No.

6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? No.

7. What did you do today that you're proud of?: Nothing.

ENVY

1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own?: I'm not sure...

2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with?: No one.

3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be?: Me.

4. Have you ever been cheated on?: No...

5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?: No.

6. What trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?: I don't want anymore traits.

7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey?: No.

8. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin?: Eh, what do I care?

[how come i must know, where obsession needs to go?]

2005-10-22T13:42:56Z

All better.
Took longer for me to heal then I expected, really. I guess I should've expected it, really, Cookie WAS rather strong...
Speaking of Cookie, I wonder if he's still down from that fight?
Haven't seen him around, especially when the others attacked a few days ago. I had to stay out of that battle, of course...
Well, whatever. I don't really care, like I've said before. ...At least, I think I don't.
...No, I don't.
I must still be injuried, why the hell would I care about an alien?

-Merle

[i don't ever plan on going back to my old life]

2005-10-11T18:08:02Z

I'm back at the cafe. Whoope-freaking-doo.
My side is still a little sore, but I haven't told the others that.
Is it any of their business? Not really.
I'll probably be healed in a few days anyway. Nothing big to worry about.
Other than that, it's been relatively quiet, for once. I take it Cookie is still down, but that really shouldn't stop the other aliens from attacking. Oh well. Not like I care; I'm quite happy with the temporary peace.
But...it wouldn't hurt to have something to do to take my mind off things.

Oh well. Can't have it all.

-Merle

[thinking of you made me cry, so many times]

2005-10-07T17:53:52Z

I'm still down after that last fight.
I'm sure Cookie is, too.
One good thing comes out of being stuck at home with injuries: I DON'T HAVE TO WORK AT THE GOD FORSAKEN CAFE!!!!
Other than that?
It sucks.
Of course, the other Mew Mews keep coming to check on me.
Whoope.
I *really* want that hyperactive Purin girl in my house where she can break all my dishes.
I should get back to sleep.
Rest a bit, so I can be prepared if the aliens attack again.
...I wonder if Shirogane-san will come to visit me?

-Merle

[and I never want to be alone again]

2005-10-03T22:47:16Z

I fought the alien again today. Guess he decided it would be okay to attack me while I was still down.
Didn't work. I managed to beat him up fairly well and he ran off.
Coward.
Still, he seemed a bit distracted by something.
Oh well. Not like I care.
He tried to kiss me again today as well.
Didn't succeed.

Still, wasn't much fun. He managed to find my weak spot (My tail, of course. Stupid thing.) and wank on it. My back is still sore...
He also hit me in the same spot my rib got broken. It hurt, needless to say.
Still, I beat him.
Nothing to worry about.

merle_hikari @ 2005-09-29T14:20:00

2005-09-29T19:36:09Z

While I should write up what happened between me and that alien the other day, I think I'll take a little survey first.

1. Your name spelled backwards: Irakih Elrem

2. Where were your parents born? Hrm. I don't particularly care where my parents were born.

3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer? Some WHR music...

4. What's your favorite restaurant? Anywhere but Cafe Mew Mew.

5. When was the last time you swam in a pool? Do I look like I would swim in a pool? --;

6. Have you ever been in a school play? No.

7. How many kids do you want? None, if I can help it. Who'd be stupid enough to hook up with me? Although, that Razuberri Aoyama girl seems to know something I don't...and she never did explain to me who Ringo and Frostingu were, either.

8. Type of music you dislike most? Country/bluegrass and some rap.

9. Are you registered to vote? No.

10. Do you have a car? No. --;

11. Have you ever ridden on a moped? No.

12. Ever prank call anybody? Wouldn't you like to know.

13. Ever got a parking ticket? No.

14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? No.

15. Furthest place you ever traveled? I don't travel.

16. Do you have a garden? No.

17. What's the size of your bed? Single.

18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? Why should I?

19. Bath or Shower, morning or night? Shower, sometimes bath, morning and night.

20. Best movie you've seen in the past 4 months? I rarely watch movies.

21. What's the next movie you want to see? No clue.

22. Chips or popcorn? Both.

23. Have you ever broken any hearts? No, unless there was some guy who randomly fell in love with me and I didn't know.

24. Premarital affairs? Like I said, who would want to go out with me?

25. Are you a good cook? Of course, seeing as how I live by myself and have to support myself.

26. Orange or Apple juice? Both.

27. Who was the last person you went out to dinner with & where did you go to? Next question.

28. Favorite type of drink? Milk. Damn cat genes.

29. Best thing in the world? Not being alone, I suppose.

30. Have you ever broken a bone? Yes. I found out, when the other Mews came to check on me, that my rib had been broken when I fought that alien.

31. Have you ever won a trophy? No.

32. What is your favorite board game? Monopoly, Clue, etc...

33. What is your dream car? ::shrugs::

34. Ever order an article from an infomercial? No.

35. Coke or Pepsi? Both are fine, even though I rarely drink them.

36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work? Yes. I have to wear that god damn sugary cute Cafe Mew Mew waitress outfit.

37. Last thing you bought at a pharmacy? Allergy medicine.

38. Who are you going to marry? The hell? Who are you kidding?

39. Who would you like to meet? No one, thanks.

40. Do you believe in love at first sight? Maybe.

41. What features do you find most attractive in the opposite sex? ...Next question, please.

42. Where would you go for a romantic evening? Why should I care? --; It's never gonna happen, anywho.

44. Last song stuck in your head? Shell - Witch Hunter Robin (I need a hobby...)

45. Any pets? No.

46. What's your all time favorite Saturday Night Live Character? Never watched it.

47. What is one thing you would like to learn to do? Play guitar.

48. What do you do when you are bored? Read, sleep, cook, watch some TV.

49. What is one thing you would want someone to appreciate about you? Anything works, really...

Next entry should be about the alien fight...whoo.

[I want to be by your side forever]

2005-09-16T17:45:54Z

Fought alien today.
Barely got out of it without losing an arm.
Or both. Can't quite remember. Pain making it too difficult to remember.

In other words, I got my arse kicked.
Was not fun.
I didn't know aliens could get that strong.
And I vaguely remember the alien leaning down and kissing me...

...
.......
............

I'm gonna kill him.
Who said I was going to be treated like Momomiya?
He better hope I never see him again.

Now that I'm thinking about it some more, I can remember a few things here and there.
He said his name was Cookie.
How come all the aliens have weird names?
More later.

-Merle

[have you ever been all alone?]

2005-09-15T21:51:09Z

So, a journal. Just for me. How SPECIAL.
Eh, to start off, I'm fourteen years old. Silver hair that's layered and goes down to my waist, silver eyes...etc. I'm merged with the DNA of a white tiger, which allows me to transform into Mew Merle. What fun. I fight the aliens on a daily basis, and I work as a waitress at Cafe Mew Mew when I'm not fighting.
I tell you, that place grows on you after a while...I'm actually starting to think it's cute.
I was, in essence, the "first" Mew Mew. Ryou Shirogane-san and Keiichiro Akasaka used me as their first experiment to make sure it was near completion. Due to me becoming a Mew Mew before everyone else, I had a few problems in the beginning. They were worked out, though, so no harm done.
I ended up staying with them every now and then. If I was a Mew Mew now, then I'd have to fight sooner or later, they told me. I still managed to wander off by myself and, because of the DNA, managed to whind up in the park and fall asleep in a tree.
You'd never really think trees would be that comfortable until you've been merged with cat DNA.
But whatever. Over time, I began to gain feelings for Shirogane-san. I never expressed them though. Due to a...ah, shall we say "interesting", past, I had trouble expressing my emotions. I found that keeping to myself and acting like I disliked and distrusted others was a good way to protect myself from being hurt.
But, once our Mew leader Ichigo Momomiya showed up, well, let's just say I got hurt in a different way. I realized my feelings for Shirogane-san wouldn't be returned, and, well...you get the picture.
But a part of me still has hope. Besides, the aliens are still here...there's plenty of time for him to gain at least SOME feelings for me.
At least, I hope.

Well, that's all for today. I'm rather tired, seeing as how it's almost 12:30. Ja.
-Merle